My brain is racing tonight, this week, the past few months. The kind of mental exercise I haven’t participated in for years. Actually I’m feeling a little Neo-ish right now, wondering if I was EVER this engaged. Anyway, forgive me for a slightly disjointed post this evening. I’m an only child, after all. Wait, what? Nevermind.
Point #1: What Goes Around Comes Back Around
It’s just true. If you don’t agree – you’re probably not stoked on the life choices you’ve made, instead believing you can hide from your deviations. I’m not religious in any sense, and I don’t think things happen for a reason. But, I do believe in embracing the crazy shit (good or bad) that the universe throws at you, and interpreting it in a way that’s gonna send you on a more effective path. We all make mistakes – I’ve definitely made some really questionable calls. But, there’s always a better course.
Deciding to screw someone over to protect yourself is definitely not the way to go, and choosing to do so will come back to you eventually. Oh, I promise it will. On a purely molecular level, those negative energy electrons will have their way. So, hey – be nice! As nice as you can be, anyway. You can’t solve all the world’s problems and you can’t help everyone. But make an effort! Smile! It could be worse, trust me – I know this first hand. Even if your life is kind of shit at the moment – figure out how to make it better. And don’t blame your shortcomings on other people, or take it out on strangers. Own up. Be brave. Take a fucking chance, would you?! The better vibes you put out into the world, the better things will come back to you – baseline science at play.
Point #2 – Life Is Weird Like That Sometimes
Not to be Vaguey McVaguerson – I heard some wonderful (horrible) stories recently about some people in a place where I may have once been paid to spend time. Ya dig? Anyway, the people in this establishment are truly some of the worst examples of humanity I’ve ever encountered, though you wouldn’t know it from their sweet smiles and promises of everything (nothing). There was a time when I thought I wanted to be them. Then, something happened that literally changed my life. A couple other things happened, and suddenly I found myself cautiously scoping out a new path. Now, 3000000000% committing to said path. I remember when I was an arrogant 23 year old who thought I knew it all, cruising to the top. Funny how that works. Someone very wise (who is doing a wonderful job of growing out his sideburns) said recently:
There are few things more liberating in this life than having your worst fear realized. I went to college with many people who prided themselves on knowing exactly who they were and exactly where they were going. At Harvard, five different guys in my class told me that they would one day be President of the United States. Four of them were later killed in motel shoot-outs. The other one briefly hosted Blues Clues, before dying senselessly in yet another motel shoot-out. Your path at 22 will not necessarily be your path at 32 or 42. One’s dream is constantly evolving, rising and falling, changing course.
Really, I just like quoting that speech because it’s a juicy cherry on top of the enormous life sundae I’ve been building over the past year and a half. Damn you O’Brien, and your unbelievably eloquent way of phrasing everything that’s right and wrong with the world.
Point #3 – If It’s Your First Night At Fight Club, You Have To Fight
You know, it’s a wonderful thing about Amazon – buying books for cheap, with free shipping and no sales tax. I used to buy a lot of DVD’s – but I’m off those now, and I’m on to books. Currently plowing through FIGHT CLUB by Chuck Palahniuk. Anyone who visits the bathroom in my apartment knows I have an affinity for the movie (Brad), and I don’t know how I’ve gone this long without reading the novel. I just stumbled across a quote that didn’t make the script, but tickled me in all the right ways:
I just don’t want to die without a few scars, I say. It’s nothing anymore to have a beautiful stock body. You see those cars that are completely stock cherry, right out of a dealer’s showroom in 1955, I always think, what a waste.
Point # 4 – Ars Gratia Artis
At the behest of a friend I found myself wandering the streets of Culver City last night, looking for the Kirk Douglas Theater. A ticket waited for me at will-call for a performance of THE METHOD GUN. The premise being a group of actors portraying a group of actors who are staging a performance of A STREETCAR NAMED DESIRE, without the 4 lead characters. Right? Yes. I really wasn’t sure what to expect as I sat in the lobby, acutely aware that I was probably one of the only non-actors in the house. Fucking actors…
Regardless, I walked into the performance space and listened in on the pseudo-intellectual conversations going on around me. What is it with everyone in this town needing to make anyone within a 100 foot radius KNOW how intelligent you are? Ugh. Anyway, the reason I mention all of this is because I found the show to be completely entertaining – and the kind of thing you would expect to be put on by a graduate level, avant-garde theater program somewhere off-off-off-offfffff Broadway. Art for arts sake. I found it refreshing, and am still thinking about it 24 hours later. I’m also wondering if my friend, who told me to see the show, actually has some kind of backend participation points, though he denies it.
It is Los Angeles, after all…